ok, hold on… what am i doing?  this is ridiculous.  so, i freaked out.  so, i got a little scared & worried & let my emotions get away from me.  i am and always have been a sensitive person.  i’ve always been a bit of a worrier.  i occasionally say what i’m feeling without thinking about the consequences & feel silly about it later.  this is all part of who i am.  i really shouldn’t apologize for liking this guy a LOT and getting a little unnerved by it.  it’s an odd situation… a guy from michigan seems to really like me when we’ve been talking online & he drives all the way down to see me on a whim.  that’s not exactly your average “dating” situation.  this is going to take some getting used to… i have not experienced anything like this before.  it would make me feel better to know what he thinks about it but i don’t have that information yet so… still a bit worried.  he doesn’t like “drama” and i created drama (which is odd because i usually steer VERY clear of drama).  he says i shouldn’t care what he thinks but, right now, that IS what i care about.  i don’t want to have screwed things up but if i did, i did… nothing i can do about it now.